It’s painful to be a fangirl

… And it’s worse when you have to witness bad things happening to your idol but there is nothing you can do.

Today is a very happy day for a BJD owner but also a sad day for a fangirl of JS/HyungSeung from BEAST. It’s happy because I had wonderful days with my friends and took many great photos, which I will show you right after this. However, as a JS bias, I finally was confirmed by many statements from other fans that JS has been ignored/bullied by the rest in his own group.

JS is being ignored since his comeback with HyunA and their newest mini album “Chemistry”. At first, I heard others said there was no any words from BEAST for JS’s comeback, but I didn’t care much with thought: “They may say it in person”. But, in many clips on Youtube, during and after JS’s comeback, with BEAST and with HyunA or alone, he seemed to show different attitudes. He was very playful around HyunA, while with his own group, he was very very quite. At first again, I thought maybe he was always a 4D person so he just shifted into his own world, but gradually, I stopped thinking so. JS has been really ignored by BEAST, i got to conclude to that. JS looked very lonely, sad and full of emotion and his group members haven’t given him any touch or eye contact. All these urged me to find out an answer!

There are some theories I could come up with. Firstly, maybe JS did a terrible mistake, too serious to be tolerated. But in my opinion, as men, they should sort things out like men, stop playing Cold war ’cause that’s girl’s way, ok? Secondly, is it possible that all because of jealousy? Somehow JS now shone brighter than all? I, personally, hate this theory, they’re brothers and real brothers should feel happy for each other’s success. Thirdly, and also the craziest theory I could think about. JS stole HyunA away from HyunJun, oh yeah!!! Sound silly huh, but because all of this issue only has happened since JS comeback with TroubleMaker,  and other members said congrat a lot with JunHyun’s solo. Lastly, is there any chance that this is a plot from Cube? I strongly believe that their managers has already awared this problem but we see no improvement. If this issue still keep going on, BEAST’s image surely will be damaged. I brang all these theories up with a friend and we are still in a middle of confusion.

I will keep supporting JS whatever is happening. Yes, even if my silly theory is true, and I will explain why later in case it’s the truth. I was inspired by his devotion to his dream, and it won’t change forever.

Okay, back to my photo set. I didn’t do it on purpose from the beginning, hahaha. When my friend put this short wig on my Sunny, she turned to be a very cute boy, just like Js in around 2011 – 2012, hahaha. Then I decided to create some intimate yet lovely photos with my friend. She’s the photographer behind all these, such a talented lady.

sunny, js, jang hyung seung, ball jointed doll, bjd doll

sunny, js, jang hyung seung, ball jointed doll, bjd doll, troublemaker, trouble maker, chemistry , pukifee mil, lati yellow sunny

sunny, js, jang hyung seung, ball jointed doll, bjd doll, troublemaker, trouble maker, chemistry , pukifee mil, lati yellow sunny

sunny, js, jang hyung seung, ball jointed doll, bjd doll, troublemaker, trouble maker, chemistry , pukifee mio

sunny, js, jang hyung seung, ball jointed doll, bjd doll, troublemaker, trouble maker, chemistry , pukifee mil, lati yellow sunny

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